My sincere condolences for your loss. Many wonder why we have to die? Rom 5:12. What is the condition of the dead? Ecc 9:5. What hope is there? Jo 5:28,29. Soon God will wipe away all tears of sorrow and death and pain will be no more. Rev 21:3,4. Then we will live the life that God originally purposed Ps 37:11,29 May you find comfort from these promises